Tuesday, September 28, 2010

In My Mailbox

This is the book that I won from CLORKWORK REVERIE. I got it in my mail today. YAY!!! So excited to read it!! Thanks again for the contest opportunity and this awesome win!! Make sure to check that blog out. It's pretty awesome and wicked contests!

Friday, September 24, 2010


Ok people sorry it's been awhile, but I've been having it pretty hard this last week. Still trying to get over my dad dying.
ANYWAYS I won a contest!!! YAY!! I won an ARC of Personal Demons! I'm so excited! I've been entering so many contest, that at one point I thought maybe they just through out my name! lol. Well I want to give a BIG thanks to 
for having the contest and giving me the chance to win! +mega happy face+

What's happening with me-
Well tomorrow I have a college fair to go to in the morning so please wish me luck! I really hope that the colleges I'm interested in are there!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

You just never know...

You know being an adopted kid has never been easy….It’s been really hard actually. My biological dad shows up on Christmas Eve, my eight grade year. Which was like 4 years ago? At the time I was kind of excited about seeing him, but then after he left; I realized I just wasn’t ready to have him in my life.
                Now I really regret making that decision. I wish I would have written him back, called him, or something. Because now he is dead, I will never get the chance again to talk to him and tell him how I feel. Monday, after school, I got this text from my nana telling me to go straight home. I was thinking oh shit what have I done this time?!?! Well when I got home my mama and nana made me sit on the couch, I knew right then that something was wrong. My nana finally told me that my real dad, Paul, had passed away. I just went numb the second she said it. I couldn’t believe it. I waited all this time, just because I was too selfish enough to not be able to face him.
                It hurts so much. I can’t talk to anyone about it. My biological mom was like cry, scream, do something, but I just sat there motionless. I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I really didn’t even know what to think. I still don’t.
                Today was his service thing they had for him. It took me a long time to admit that I wanted to go. I wanted my real mom to go with me, but once again she puts her other kids in front of me. So my grandmother went with me. I had never met any of these people. Some of them saw me when I was a baby, but that’s it. I just could never go see any of them. I don’t know why. I have no way of explaining it. I guess you just have to be an adopted kid to understand what I’m going through…Who knows maybe I’m just crazy.
                I wish they hadn’t cremated him. Or at least let me see him one more time before they did. Dammit why didn’t I ever write him?! Ugh I piss myself off! I met all of his family and they just made me feel worse about never coming to see him. They were all so glad to see me. I met my half-sister too. Wow now she can talk… She made me feel so bad though. She just kept going on about how Paul always talked about me and wanting to see me. I didn’t want to be mean to the girl, but she was kind of annoying. She just wouldn’t give me any space tonight at all. I guess that's what little sisters are like. Everyone kept staring at me the whole time. At the end they all crowded around me, it was so weird. I didn’t know what to do or say. I’ve never been the one to be claustrophobic, but tonight I felt extremely closed in.
                I am really glad that I went though. I’m glad I got to meet my great grandparents and all. It’s still gonna take some time to get use to though. At first I was afraid no one would accept me and not want me there. Oh boy how I was wrong. I’m glad I could make everyone happy, just by going.  I want to go by the grave site again, when I don’t have everyone crowding around me. The biggest lesson I learned from this was to never take anyone for granted because in a blink of an eye they could be taken away from you forever…

Friday, September 17, 2010

Shoots to Kill (Flower Shop Mysteries, #7)

      Eight years ago, Abby Knight babysat for a problem teen named Elizabeth. Today, Elizabeth's back, with a new name (Libby) and a whole new life (stolen) - namely, one that already belongs to Abby. Libby's even trying to steal Abby's boyfriend, Marco. But imitation really becomes the sincerest form of trouble when Abby finds herself the accused dupe in a bizarre murder plot. What I think:
     I think overall it was pretty good. It wasn't my absolute favorite out of the series, but I wouldn't, mind reading it again. I just felt like Abby gave in to Marco, at the end, too easily. Yeah I understand where Marco was coming from, saying that she didn't trust his judgment either, but Abby's gut feeling has never been wrong. I think he should have taken it more seriously when she told him about Libby. I think it was really stupid how no one believed Abby in the beginning. It was so obvious that Libby was coping EVERYTHING!!! I mean come on she changed her name to Libby, she cut her hair the same as Abby, she showed up at Abby's family dinner, and she freakin' dyed her hair like Abby!! Hello people!?! LOL! One thing I absolutely loved about the book was the sexual frustration between Marco and Abby. It was so funny. I wish we could have gotten a little bit of Marco's POV. That would have been pretty sweet. I feel like the writer doesn't give us enough into their relationship. Like once it starts getting to the good part with them, the damn book ends! I'm like you got to be freakin' kidding me.
Shoots to Kill (Flower Shop Mysteries, No. 7)
What I'm reading next:
         The Vampire Diaries: The Return: Nightfall    AHH I can't wait!! I've been waiting forever for my friend to give this back to me!!!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

My First Laptop

Oh yeah my sexAY laptop! Lol

Long Week

Well it's Thursday and it feels like the weekend is never gonna arrive! This year I've decided to do half-high school half-college. Well last night my dad took me laptop shopping and we made it a family thing. My brother and his wife came along too! Well I got me a laptop that I really like!! Its a

Sony VAIO. It's totally sexy!!!! I'm going to send actual pictures of it from my iPhone in a sec.
    As I said in the previous post about reading Shoots to Kill (Flower Shop Mysteries, No. 7), haha well I'm still reading it. I only like 50 pages now. I've just had so much to do this week, that I haven't had a chance to do much at all!! I hope whoever is reading this is having an amazing week and reading lots of interesting books!

P.S. Don't forget Blogmania ends tonight!!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Monotonous Monday

  Well I hope everyone enjoyed the BlogFest weekend. I sure did! I haven't won anything yet.... +sad face+ but there is still a chance, seeing as a lot of the blogs haven't posted up a winner. Congrats to the people who know they have already won and good luck to the ones that haven't. Haha don't give up hope because blogmania is just around the corner! Can I get a WOOT WOOT?!?!
  Anyways as of right now I'm reading Shoots to Kill (Flower Shop Mysteries, No. 7) and it's as REALLY good! I thought it wasn't gonna be that great since my two favorite characters weren't going to be together throughout the book, but turns out I think I might like them better this way. There is so much sexual frustration that it drives Abby wild and it just cracks me up!! But enough bout that, I haven't quite finished the book yet, I'm getting there though! +happy face+
  Ok, yeah I know my blog, as of the moment, is really shitty, and I want to apologize for that right now! I'm terribly sorry! I'm just now starting to figure out all of the features and trying to post everyday. I don't know how well this blog is going to turn out or if anyone is going to return and keep reading, but I'm going to try my best.
  Up next for reading is either gonna be............. Pretty Little Liars [PRETTY LITTLE LIARS #01 PR] or.........finish The Vampire Diaries: The Return: Shadow Souls. Any ideas?!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Testing to see if the mobile thing works. This flower is like an inspirational flower to me...

Finally Finished!!

YAY guys I've finally finished entering all of the contest that I liked! If you haven't check out BlogFest 2010, there is still time! You have until Midnight tonight to enter! So get your butt off of this blog and go to the blogs that are having great giveaways!! Cinnamon is the one hosting BlogFest this year. So go to her blog to get the list of the blogs that are in the event!


Saturday, September 11, 2010

Back to school Giveaway

Reading Teen is doing a back to school giveaway! It ends Sept. 24 so hurry on over there and enter! There are lots of ARC to pick from. I'm pretty sure a lot of them are some that we have been DYING to read! Haha! Here's the link:

I just have to say....

RIP to all the victims of 9/11! May you all rest in peace. You will never be forgotten and will always remain in our hearts!

Hey Guys Check This Out!!!

Hey guys most of you probably already know about Blogfest 2010! There are lots of giveaways happening so totally check them out. There is one particular one that I want to point out today.It's hosted by Bitten by Books. You can enter to win a Kindle 3 Wifi!!!! Just click this link to see the rules and regulation: